i’m not really a bandwagon type of girl. in fact, often just seeing that “everyone is doing” something is enough to make that something suspect and send me straight in the other direction. not really sure why this is. i mean in high school, like most adolescents, i was pretty driven by my peer group, the latest fashion trends, etc.
but somewhere along the line, i realized that i prefer to do my own thing. maybe it’s my rebellious streak. or my fiercely independent nature. or a desire to stand out from the crowd. or some kind of resistance to change. but for the most part, i’m not easily swayed to go along with the current trends. i would find it really burdensome to try to keep up with all of that.
staying true to my calling and my inner self is something i have learned to put a high priority on and i’m convinced that it’s worth the trouble. but it can sometimes be a lonely endeavor. a lot of the things that “most people” enjoy, i don’t seem to have much interest in. like shopping (except thrifting!) or sports. or jewelry. or watching the royal wedding (ok, i do have it on tape). at times i feel a bit like a social misfit. and it’s hard to believe that at my age, i still sometimes feel the sting of rejection when i am not included in things. i get it, but the hurt is there nonetheless. (what, have i not moved on from junior high??)
this has taken a completely different direction than what i intended, which so often happens when i put finger to keyboard. didn’t really mean to take you down that path – in fact, i was planning to talk about how the current trend that i’m resisting is the iphone. pretty sure it’s only a matter of time and i’m already halfway there since i use my ipod touch all the time, but i’m still holding out. we’ll see what happens….
|me on the red rocks, nevada|
(all wagons in utah)