ok, i have to admit…. i’ve been distracted lately. as much as i know in my heart the futility of comparing myself with others and their successes and accomplishments and even teach in my classes about how to avoid this….it still happens. and much as i try to talk myself out of it and try to avert my attention sometimes my thoughts go in obsessive spirals that i seem powerless to control.
a few things that help:
just knowing what i explained above. i’m not alone in this – it’s a common artist pitfall. it’s temporary. i can move on. it’s happened before. it will likely happen again.
getting out and reaching out to others. my problems seem like a joke in light of what many others are dealing with. in this case, working with my inside out girls and seeing their enthusiasm has really helped.
getting out in nature and letting my thoughts clear. i went hiking yesterday to torrey pines. when i sat down at the beach and picked up my pen, these are the words that immediately came to me: “follow your own path”. so simple and something i already know so well, but the reminder was what i needed. no one else’s path is right for me. what they are doing and accomplishing does not concern me (other than to congratulate them and wish them well.)
so for me, specifically, (my path) this means:
· be with nature, deeply, and learn from its messages
· find inspiration in my own life and the things and people around me and use that in creating
· work with women, locally, specifically those who are not experiencing the joys of creativity, even if that means a class of 2 people because that is who needs to be there.
· realize that all the time and effort and enthusiasm i have put into projects that have “fallen flat” is not wasted. it is energy that will be of value sometime in some way.
the last one is the hardest for me to do. sometimes i wholeheartedly believe that…. but other times…. well, let’s just say it’s a big challenge. thanks for listening…