Monday, March 19, 2012

Recalculating...


geckos   

you’ve probably heard that word if you’re using gps and you make a wrong turn.  it can be annoying (especially if, like me, you occasionally make wrong turns on purpose!) but it’s the word that came to me when i sat down this morning to re-evaluate where i stand from a creative perspective. 

ukeleles

 















i decided that writing my thoughts out could be helpful, especially knowing what a supportive audience i have, and i will intersperse them with some images that i would classify as “typically hawaiian.”

surfboards

macadamia nuts





























tiki totems

why am a having to recalculate?  well, it seems that lately so many of my creative endeavors have not taken on wings, as i had hoped, and have remained grounded.  or hit the wall.  or fallen flat.  (the latest blow is that the gallery where i show my work has suddenly had to close indefinitely due to water damage and asbestos. yikes.)  use whatever analogy you want, but here i am at a sort of tipping point.

fabulous (though expensive!) coffee

decorated gravesites

plantation cottages

from this perspective, i can see so easily the side on which i could let my hopes and dreams get swept away like flotsam in the recent rains. caught in the swirl and right down the drain.   it’s almost tempting to let that happen.  let it all go.  a clean slate from which to work.  open my eyes and start all over.

mai-tais!

pu-pus (polynesian appetizers)

if i keep my wits about me though, i can see the other side.  the rational side.  the side that knows all the time and effort i have put into each project and realizes the stupidity of just letting that all go down the tubes.  that reminds me that even when it’s hard to believe, no efforts or positive intentions are ever really wasted.  and that we don’t always know where they are leading or when they may come into play in some new and positive way.

lotsa fruit

lotsa lava


lotsa flowers

so i need to tip the scales in that direction.  i need to keep moving forward.  this i know.  sometimes the creative practices that we establish can act as a lifeline and i feel like this is one of those times.  so, yes, i will KEEP MOVING FORWARD!

colorful prints

fishing

mochi

(thanks for listening – i feel better already!!)

even the dogs have dreadlocks!

coconuts     
  
pele, volcano goddess (from the jaggar museum, sorry - could not find the artist's name)

Friday, March 16, 2012

I Hafta Start Somewhere....



i am back home,
missed a whole night of sleep,
already mama to a beautiful new (and needy) pup
(more on that later!)


 trying to pick up where i left off
reeling from all that needs to be done
wrapping my rusty brain around
details that were left undone
taxes, dr. appointments, deadlines….. on and on



 realizing that i have over 1400 pics to wade through….
…and loving that….


because it brings me back
helps me realize that these new experiences
are now a part of me


these are much more
than just pretty images to me
they represent a reality
that was part of my life
for two whole weeks


 and because of that reality
i am not the same as i was


 so, yea, it’s a little overwhelming
and i have so much to share….


 but i have to start somewhere
and i’m happy to do it!


so i hope you enjoy this little sampling
of the lushness and extreme diversity
that is the BIG ISLAND!



oh - some not-so-happy retreat news here.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Symphony



for 5 days i am living at the edge of the sea
watching it, breathing it,
absorbing its primordial power
deep into my very core


 i can’t seem to tear myself away
from the pounding symphony
entitled “waves vs. rocks”
no two chords are the same
and though there is the occasional interlude
this particular symphony
is composed mostly of
tumultuous crescendos
crescendos  that boast
of vast and primitive power
power that belittles me
and makes me feel small



witnessing this violent fury of earth
(last week volcanoes
now living on this edge
in an extended period
of high surf warnings)
its daunting
unnerving
and somewhat disturbing...



there is a big part of life
in that fury
i can identify with it
twist and turn and flow with it
let it act as catharsis
to unlock stuff
that needs to break free


 but it is not a part
that i want to be with
on a continual basis
while my spirit is seduced by
this relentless outpouring of energy
it also craves tranquility


so it came as somewhat of a surprise
to realize that
in spite of the terrible beauty
no, i wouldn’t want to live here....



Monday, March 5, 2012

Winter Color


just in case you are needing a little infusion of color in your winter world.....






enjoy!!!
(p.s. not Hawaii yet, just my backyard)