it’s not hard to look around and realize, that, yes, october has arrived. i have very mixed feelings about that…. i mean, i love fall – the color, the crispness, the coziness. (thank goodness, as of today, our seemingly endless summer heatwave has ended!)
but october is also the month of my birth. exciting, right? wait a minute – not so fast. i have been dreading this one in a big way. and wondering if i should even say anything at all. why?? because the fact is, i know the majority of my readers are younger than me and i guess at some level i feel that if you realize how much older i am, it will alienate you somehow (she’s HOW old?? omg, she’s older than my mother!)
irrational? probably. silly?? absolutely. but i want to be as honest as possible and so i’m just exploring this myself. here’s another ridiculously irrational thought: if they know how old i am, they will expect more from me. they will expect me to be very wise and mature and then be disappointed when i’m not…. (yikes!)
and then there’s the fact that i can fool some folks. i’m not overweight and blonde hair hides the gray pretty well – if you don’t look too close, i may fool you for a while, but so what (it’s not like that’s going to add any more years to my life…) would you be more likely to be my friend if i were turning 50?? (i doubt it)
i realize the reality is i’m not giving you guys nearly enough credit. those of you that i know, i also know to be beyond this kind of thinking….so i’m jumping in headfirst, owning this thing and determined to put a positive spin on it….. i’m turning 60 this month! there. the cat is out of the bag!
i will be taking another break this week - we are traveling again – this time a family reunion. it’s a branch of my hubby’s family that neither of us know…. should be interesting! hope to catch you soon....