i just finished a new powerpoint presentation. it’s about contemplative photography. it’s a topic near and dear to my heart and i’m pleased with how it all turned out. i would love to do a little workshop on this topic, but i have to be honest. i have absolutely no confidence that anyone would come.
i know that this probably sounds like i’m beating myself up – like a case of the old demons, creeping up behind me and craftily wielding their wily wands. in part, that may be true. when i come up with something new, i have trouble believing that it will be well-received. and i’ve successfully moved past that stuckness on many occasions.
but another part of this is actually based on experience. i’m starting to realize more and more that my creative passions are somewhat out of the mainstream. for instance, the average person who would take a photography class is more interested in developing technical skill than in wanting to use photography as a form of meditation…..
so what happens if the things that you want to teach are not things that most people want to learn?? i have really been struggling with this lately. i have put soooo much time and effort into creating various presentations and curriculums for things that i am passionate about and, for the most part, i don’t know what to do with them.
i suppose there are others out there somewhere who would resonate with them, but i’m not at all sure i have what it takes to go about finding them. sorry to be on a bit of a downer here…. just trying to keep it real. and i know that no matter what, i need to follow my own path and not one that is designed by the demands of others.... sigh...
curious if any of you have ever felt this way.... it's entirely possible that it's just me.