ok, let me begin by establishing a couple of things:
i know you will laugh at me
i get that i’m not overweight
i exercise every day
i follow a mostly healthy eating routine….
having said all of that…. i am having a little bit of a struggle. you see i like to maintain my weight. it’s comfortable. it keeps me in my jeans. it’s been pretty much the same for a really long time and i like to keep it that way. some times in my life that has been relatively easy and other times (like when i first moved into the dorm in college) not so much. as i get older it’s moving into the not so much category. i feel like if i start gaining weight now (and I have), it’ll be a “slippery slope” and i don’t want that.
so here’s my confession: i’m a candy-holic. ok, maybe that’s too strong of a word – i have a serious candy habit. for as long as i can remember i have eaten candy. like every day. i have it in my car. i like to munch on it in my studio. i really like it after dinner while watching tv.
even though i know it’s not good for me or my teeth…. i never thought i had the wherewithal to give it up. i feel like i kinda need it. but of all the things i could choose to give up (at least temporarily) this makes the most sense. it’ll be good for me, save me money and make it easier to maintain my weight.
that’s what my rationale mind told me and (albeit reluctantly) the rest of me finally agreed to give it a try. 5 days in and i’m surviving. is it getting easier each day? not really. but at least i know i can do it. and that’s big.