i had one yesterday. perhaps you have had them too….. (hopefully not!) i had absolutely zero confidence that anything i could ever hope to do would really “amount to anything.” and when i get in that mode, guess who else comes to call?? right out of the woodwork come all those hidden friends that i thought were long buried. the ones that remind me about everything i’ve ever done in my life that hasn’t been exactly “successful”. and believe me, there are a whole army of those guys!
the good thing is that even when i’m in the thick of these feelings, i’m starting to get that they aren’t permanent. so i was able to relax a little. i was able to let it be. to let the demons have their say. i journaled. i went to class. i even went to a reception last night, but other than that, I stayed away from social interaction, blogs, email, etc. i didn’t fight it and didn’t talk about it with anyone else.
thankfully this morning i feel like it’s a new day. i have ideas. i have motivation. i took lots photos on my walk. i wrote stuff down. and writing about all of this here is, i think, the best therapy. because i’m pretty sure that some of you get it. now how could i ever get that kind of reinforcement without blogging? it’s a wonderful thing, my friends…..
don't i have an interesting neighborhood?? (funny... yesterday i thought it was dull and boring - what a difference a day makes! now if i can just keep that going.......)
i do soooo appreciate your stopping by!!