i’m a little kid-like when it comes to the holidays. as soon as the turkey is digested, i start thinking maybe it is time to pull out the holiday plates, activate my special playlist and start decorating. rationally, i tell myself that december should really be the starting point for all this madness. after all, i don’t want to OD on it before the 25th. but, little by little, things get pulled from their long hibernation hideouts and start doing their part to make this a festive holiday.
at this point, the house is decorated and the tree is up. we’ve already attended our first holiday party and i’m working on cards. i’ve made some killer apple cranberry bread and given it away. and i’m determined not to get stressed. everything does not need to get done right now….. it will all happen in its own good time. and as i stated in a previous post: IT”S ALL CHRISTMAS. right now. this moment. we do not have to wait for one day to enjoy all the good things that this season has to offer. each little piece can bring us joy and meaning if we stay open to it.
having said all of that, i’m afraid it’s going to be kind of a rough one for us. our worst fears for our sweet muffin (bone cancer) seem to be coming true. after a respite that the medication provided, her limp has returned. i already have her presents wrapped and under the tree, but i am doubtful that she will be with us at that time. sigh. one day at a time at this point. though my heart is breaking, i am determined to look at the big picture and find joy in other things.